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2011-03-09T16:14:00.002+08:00

wow.. here to clear away the spider webs. hmm.

moving off to tumblr. my pic hosting site has remove my account without any info. boo.

well, i got a new bf, nice and sweet.

but...

recently... ok, though i am not attached for VERY long.. these few days... the past came and haunt me.. i feel that i am not 'okay' yet. no, he is not a substitute of course... i guess.. i need more time... to get over it. pls let it be quick! y i am still hanging onto something which is never mine... =(

i miss him...

2010-11-15T12:52:00.004+08:00

hmm. just happened that i feel like blogging. haven't been blogging due to tumblr-ing. but not much also as there is nothing interesting about my life lately.

well, don't touch the wound, and everything will be just fine.

got addicted on vampire diaries. but i tried to slow down in catching it as season 2 is still running.

i am actually on mugging and dieting mode. just don't like myself now.

did some editing of my pics. nothing nice.

so basically now is boring, life-less, anti-social life. HAHA.

"a breakup is like kicking off a drug addiction."

2010-09-21T23:23:00.001+08:00

i wish today is thursday.. can meet the girls.. have fun... and seriously, i wanna go zoo on my 25th bday okay!. sigh. so old. like mid age crisis. HOW!

i need a change.. any change. we people are always underpaid. sigh. i need to build up my confidence level.

2010-09-05T15:03:00.003+08:00

alot of things happened recently. well, on a happy note, it is cooling down now.

into tumblr recently. addicted to it. enjoyed posting.

going for a day surgery on the 15th. argh. just chopped it off. seriously. so sick of it.

i wanna get itouch 4. but i need to sell of the current one. boo.

2010-08-23T16:25:00.001+08:00

i hate it. =(

2010-08-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

the past two weeks, life isn't that fantastic.

i hate people making a fuss when bosses walked past, backstabbing. okay, no one will like it. but it is really bad.

anyway, went to the temple today as i wanna draw the lots.

two good, one bad.

the one that is bad is for work. studies and love life is good. the one is bad is really bad.. as in... the english illustration : 'even if you are pregnant, you will get miscarriage.' yes, that bad. went to ask the person to explain to me. he said, it is super bad, and alot of 'xiao ren and xiao gui' all hidden in the dark. work is not as smooth as it seems to be.

studies : in the past is bad, but it will get better from now on. which means that i will get 50 instead of 49? ha. oh, he mentioned that i will complete my studies, need proper skills to achieve it.

love : i don't wish to mention as he said till it's super good in the future. but to me, nothing is good unless something happen.

anyway, i just draw lots for fun, won't read so much into it. =)

went to the airport and played the tallest slide. hah. it has been ages since i play a slide! cool~ the speed depends on what material you wear. and we have to sign and indemnity form before playing. hmm...

weekend is gone with a breeze. so is the baybeats. soon, YOG too..

tomorrow is doom day...

2010-08-11T16:32:00.000+08:00

"I can't cry. Its the saddest moment in my life and I can't cry."

when i read this, I cried.

i still can't get over it. why!

upset.

2010-08-08T00:37:00.007+08:00

so busy this week.. busy with what i really don't know... alot of disturbance. but anyway... this week is o-v-e-r.

and luckily, boss is back to save me... a relief. =)

went for the bobbi brown, so called 'fashion show'.

coordinating with dkny to promote their new jeans.

learnt alot of tips from the host - tran (think that is his name), the famous tv fashion artiste.

followed by some demonstrations and tips for make up. i was like.. OOo... now i know. LOL...

oh! and they served nice pastries! but i only ended up eating the cup cake. tooo full.

guess what? oh, only the fist box, at the front, is mine. =) the rest are sherlyn's. she spent up till SGD500... -.-"

there door gift is okay-okay. some vouchers.

oh, and i still hate my hair. H-A-T-E.

he is cute...

2010-08-06T14:06:00.001+08:00

好想哭。。。

2010-08-05T12:45:00.001+08:00

sleepy.

2010-08-04T10:58:00.002+08:00

i am super pissed now. stop poking me until i cannot take it. i don't need your opinion anyway, i hate people who slap you already, then come and say sorry. what for? who are you to me? the one who suffer will be you. not me. i am not a sandbag for you to punch. happy, you talked to me, not happy then be sacastic to me. wth? wanna punch? you got the wrong person then.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2010-08-03T23:16:00.005+08:00

back to blogging. had a bad week last two weeks. so i decided to skip the pages. =)

recently, atmosphere in the office is very quiet, and weird.. i should said.

lesser people now, and ever since i got misunderstood, i tend to not working twice as hard as before. and i don't know what's wrong with her, she refused to talk to me. and it is awkward if i took the same bus or lift with her. now, i only leave office after she left. anyway, i try not to care.

yesterday was bad too, as I got naggings for doing something which is not exactly my fault, i mean come to think of it. but anyway... leave it as that.

today slightly better. i realised that i am working, as though i am taking care of my own business. what it takes to operate a company?

need to take care of the production.
need to push for sales.
need to chase for payment.
need to look after every small/big things.
know your products/prices at your fingertips.
PR-ing is very important too.

oh, i am doing all of the above.

this is what keeping me busy and stress at work.

which is good. keep my mind off everything.

had class just now, feel the strain and tired-ness. super duper stiff. i admit i am old now. =(

on a happy note....

it is arriving at my office tomorrow... =))

with free blue tooth set, free 3 pairs of movie tix, free auto roam and caller ID for 2 years. and i paying FOC. but i need to give up my E71.. which i still like it so far.. =/ hope BB doesn't disappoint me.

off to bed...

2010-07-24T21:02:00.001+08:00

i miss you more than you can imagine...

migraine. =((

2010-07-21T17:25:00.003+08:00

sigh. my camera memory stick got corrupted and all the pictures are G-O-N-E!

so upset.

when will my bad luck be wash away completely?

2010-07-20T17:22:00.002+08:00

When one starts questioning your own abilities, that is when you realised that you have to be more focused.

yes, i know, i got it.

why is it overwhelming me again...

google chrome is much much nicer to use than mozilla or ie. seriously.

2010-07-16T10:44:00.005+08:00

finally... today is friday. so tired.

had fine dining experience in Morton's. It is located at Mandarin Oriental at level 5. One server per table. Cool. But seriously, to be a waiter there is sooo tedious and stressful. I looked at them, I realised that what I am facing everyday cannot be compared to them. haha.

met San. we went to catch despicable me. it's soooo cute and funny. imagining myself as the 'yellow one'. HAHAHA. ok, that's so dumb.

watched inception, so difficult to understand. feel so tired after watching that movie. kept me thinking and thinking.

shall stay away from town till 9th of August. soooo crowded, traffic jams and road blocks. but i managed to see fireworks when i am in the bus. =)

saw this when i was in the bus passing by the singapore museum. not sure it was a advertisement or real. if it is real, i think this is really sweet. saw it and immediately my reaction is 'awwwww'. =)

i don't understand why a person can change overnight. can give up everything for a person. been through and seen so many real life examples, but i still feel that they are not in their right mind. sub-concious. trying to bring things across them seems even harder than ever. what i said during this period they don't even listen to anything, instead, they think that i am insane. why don't you guys listen to me? argh. so tired of repeating and repeating again.

if your bf/gf does not like the friends that you mixed with, will you give up your friends for him/her?

i was told in my face, 'hey, my gf don't like me to mix with you.'

and that's it, our friendship ended. how sad can this be. no point talking sense to a person when he don't listen.

2010-07-12T12:18:00.003+08:00

been so tired lately.

and i stepped on a nail yesterday while i was washing the car. now i know what is called blood rushing out like water tap. anyway, it lasted for awhile and stopped. mum took me to the clinic to have the tetanus vaccination, just in case, as the nail is abit rusty.

waste money again.

save save save.

work is fine. though i got blame for some things that is not my fault. however, it has been solved.

and spain won. yay.

2010-07-07T23:14:00.001+08:00

soo, i am back from bkk. very tired. have not recover. how i wish i stay there, i don't wanna come back.

busy like mad. no time to blog.

busy busy.

till then.

2010-06-29T21:52:00.003+08:00

today is a bad bad day. super suay, super bad.

i thought i lost my hp. but turn out, i left it in my bro's car. and to make things worst, the whole office helped me to look for it and i put it on silent mode. =(

second, shipment got delayed. i promised that it will be on time, but it is not. though it is not my fault for the vessel to delay, but i feel bad. =( luckily, boss didn't scold me. but his trip to manila may be delayed, due to this shipment.

third, one of my colleague in bintan resigned. it may not affect the company so much. my boss asked me what should i do.. i said, i don't know. not good in PR. well, he told me talked to her, and talked to my factory manager, is she needed. if not, let her go.

i asked my colleagues, one say yes, one say no. i asked them whether they can share the work load, one say yes, one say no. so what?? can or not? if i know malay language, probably i can do it on my own. which i do not mind.

fourth, some restructure in the company. if i can handle, i would love to handle my tasks. busy it might be, but then, i am happy working. and the best is, time flies. in a blink. i proposed that my work is still manageable. i hope they wont touch it.

ok, enough of complaints.

on a happy note, my boss asked me to check the price of the BB that i wanted with my plan. =)) but he said no promises.. well, better than nothing.

i am going to BKK, but i have not pack any single thing. great.

went for the class... destressed, feels good, feels great.

i am surprised.. that he still smsed me.. after.. 3 months? i don't know what to reply...

i remember everything.
i remember that day.
i remember how i pleaded you.
i remember how i begged you.
i remember how you let go of me.
i remember how tough i am trying to be.
i remember that day that i nearly scared my mum to death.
i remember how my life changes after that...

roller-coastering. =(

2010-06-28T23:37:00.005+08:00

i am super upset with my permed hair... i will NEVER do it again.. waiting for another half a year and i will rebond it.

so upset that i cried. =(( i HATE it.

And it is so much more expensive! Why am I so impulsive! :((

i feel that i am super ugly and old now. i just feel like locking myself at home, where nobody sees me. =(((

2010-06-27T23:54:00.001+08:00

:(

He asked me again... How...

Should I?

2010-06-26T01:00:00.003+08:00

First time attending an Indian style wedding. It is more like family day rather than dinner banquet. I am super glad that I am sitting at the VIP seat.. If not we need to queue for the food as it is buffet style! Imagine it is like hundreds of people queuing for food! So omg. But anyway, the food tasted okay. :) and at 1030, the dinner has not ended, they have speeches and they are going to dance!! Maybe running around the trees.. :X but I ran off when they started to have fever. Hah..

Someone asked me to join his company.. Hmm.. Accounts cum marketing. Another new line. But at the moment.. Nt yet. Nt even a year at the curreent company. This guy came and passed me something and offered to fetch me to the place I wanna go as he came late. So basically I felt that I have gone through an interview in the car! So, so many questions.

But of course, when he offered to fetch me I did tell my boss in any case anything happen. So after that he texted me to check whether I am safe and sound. Hmm, recently my boss has been abit too nice. So not used to it as he usually will be sarcastic or bully me. Hah.

Him : so how's Ivan? ;)

Me : wow, not bad, he lives very near me. Anyway, he asked me to join his company.. -.- he is doing retail on hp.

Him: what!!!??? He asked you to join him!!!??? I'm cancelling the contracts! Going to kill him! You're mine ok! (work sense) haha..

At a moment.. I thought that was sweet.. At least he appreciate my work. :)

Walk past the pet shop. Saw the hamsters.. It reminds me of the hamster that i got a year back.. And when I start to think.. Everything come back to me again...sigh.

Tmr gonna work.. Off to bed...

2010-06-25T12:47:00.001+08:00

WTH! italy is out of the run. HAHAHA. i don't know what happened. those i supported lost, unpredictable won. and i shall not bet. this is the biggest hint to me already. HAH.

2010-06-23T23:14:00.004+08:00

seriously... i don't like this status quo thingy. =(

what is it that you want?

what is it that he wants?

what if you were given a chance?

what if i were given a chance?

anyway, i am not thinking. because it will never happens. kept everything and packed up. don't wish to be distracted...

if it's meant to be, it is. no pulling effect.

found a book called... PR for dummies.

interesting.. i am a dumb dumb.

it is annoying to be stuck here updating the OS 4. it has been like for hours and hours... so tired till i dozed off in front of the comp.

was watching the match for awhile. go england.

moody.

2010-06-22T22:06:00.002+08:00

Finally.. I did something that I always wanted to do. :)

I love the class. It keeps me occupied.

I had a great day at work too.

Now I am prepared for the muscles aches. Hah.

2010-06-21T17:55:00.003+08:00

hmm. don't feel like going home. still in office. but bored. went to swensens for lunch just now. didn't know grilled salmon can taste so good. now i know why zhen is always having the salmon. hah.

b-e-a-utiful.......

2010-06-21T11:35:00.001+08:00

you guys make my Monday less moody. =)

2010-06-20T23:33:00.003+08:00

today is daddy's day. hah. went to look for my dad for breakfast, then went to ah ma house. having fun with the car. then met my friends at bugis. enjoyed the lame jokes and chit chats. long time didnt see clive and ally.

i missed them already. =(

2010-06-20T03:30:00.001+08:00

Can't sleep. Tossing ard in my bed. Sigh.

ITE. He's gone...

2010-06-19T22:43:00.003+08:00

spent more than an hour in Page One. Becoming a book worm.

was looking for a bday gift for my boss.. but i couldn't find one. afraid that people will gossip that i am boot licking. so, decided not to.

Saw alot of sales but I don't feel like buying anything. I bought Carl's junior for dinner, second time having that. It's gooood but as usual, can't finish it all.

My parking still very bad. It is never in the lot. :(

'It takes as much energy to wish as it does to plan. Start making plans for somethigg you've only dreamt about so far.'

I liked the above quote. So y wish? But if I don't, I won't be human. Human loves to wish. Alright, talking nonsense now.

World cup today cannot based on past performance. Unpredictable.

2010-06-13T22:00:00.002+08:00

What makes you people attracted to me? I am neither sweet talker nor pretty.

It's getting on my nerves. When I say no, don't probe. I have the rights who I should meet.

Friend : hey, can I see u home?

Me : huh? Y would u want to see me home?

Friend : I just wanted to. Heh.

I reckoned that I stunned him with this question as he took a while to reply me. Weird. I seriously don't like it.

2010-06-12T21:24:00.002+08:00

I re-watched twilight. For... I don't know how many times. And it's still.. 'awwww, so sweeet'.

My company just has an office in Bangkok. Renovating. And maybe I will need to station there. Well, I don't mind, since I prefer speaking English than mandarin. And I don't mind since it is more like sg. Much better than china. An the best thing is, I can shop, non-stop without worrying a drastic drop in my bank. :)

Not having a good appetite after exam. Hah. Withdrawal symptoms.

I am good at remembering dates, as usual.

2010-06-11T00:43:00.002+08:00

Finally it's done and over with.. Don't care whether pass or fail.. Anyway, I think I did worse than the previous time, so, since I didn't pass the last time, I confirm will fail this time. Hah. Saw alot of my poly mates at the venue.. Caiyu, yuhua, meihui and meifang.. We were saying how many times we have taken for some papers.. Hah. We are all stuck there. Felt kind of comfort that I am not the only one with this case. Hah, I am good at self-deceiving...

Had a good dinner with boss and colleagues after the paper just now. Then I headed off to get some stuff to make myself feel better. Hah. I am good at treating myself better now.. Not to let my mum worried about me..

Going to work tmr and I had a 'sneak preview' just now at my emails.. Around 40 emails.. Crap.

Alot of movies are coming out now.. How!!! Sigh..

I wish I have a short break now.. Msia? Bali? Just stay at home and rot better.. Hah.

Anyway, going off to Bangkok soon! But I missed my bro's 21st bday.. Bad sis. :(

I will get used of myself.

2010-06-09T22:41:00.002+08:00

Having running nose the whole day. Sigh.

Can someone define happiness?

I wish I never have the expectations, sorry.

2010-06-05T18:50:00.001+08:00

home alone.

so, so bored.

2010-06-05T08:33:00.002+08:00

and so, i rejected him.

boss: hey, u had lunch with your friend? you don't look like you know him well...

me: yes, i don't know him well. hah.

boss: oh, so he is interested in u.

me: u said, i didnt say anything.

boss: give him a chance lahhhh...

me: ...

yawns. i feel so good after rejecting. so that i dont need o keep on finding excuses not to meet him.

it has been ages since i went to the lib. so, i visted. =)

sian.. weekend is here again.. not happy.

me:

2010-06-03T06:15:00.000+08:00

I had a nightmare. Woke up crying and crying.. Heartbroken.

2010-05-31T22:12:00.000+08:00

y do i always see what i shouldn't have see?

=(

2010-05-31T12:03:00.001+08:00

ain't working today.

having some me-time.

went for a jog, and have mac bkf.

and of course, mugging.

2010-05-29T21:01:00.004+08:00

Abit annoyed... But okay la, I don't need people to understand me. People always judge each other by cover, by perception. Most people thinks, believes that I am a spendthrift. Well, I admit that, to certain extent. What I buy, worth it or not, for who, like it or not, is what I buy. Not you. If you ain't happy, you are just sore.

Why can't people believe that it's a gift? If I come back with bags, it means I am shopping? Well, honestly, when I was out, I didn't visit any of my favourite shops today. I am also lazy to explain, so tiring. If I change wallet, people will just say, 'again!' It doesn't means I bought it myself what.. I really don't know what to say. Maybe when I am attached last time, I can proudly and stepped into the house and said'its a gift' even if I bought something for myself.

Now when I come home is ,'spend money again ah!'

no one understands, if you don't, please don't step on me, I may not be as nasty as last time, doesn't mean tht u can step on my tail.

Had some agruments about the air tickets.. Why so difficult? Sigh.

I really hate the life I am living in now.

Just, please... leave me alone.

2010-05-28T11:26:00.001+08:00

boss: maybe i should get you a blackberry...

*me nodding head vigorously*

boss: o-kaaaaay, let me get the project first..

...

yay! one step nearer to BB! =))

but i think talk no action leh.

This ramen is reeeealllly delicious! yummy!

I like the design. =)

while i was in china. the only thing i missed is the weather! singapore is super humid! boo!

went to the temple early morning. somanypeople!!

MY GOD..... MY FRIEND IS SO IRRITATING!! HE SIGNED ME UP FOR STANARD CHARTERED MARATHON 2010 FOR 21 KM!!! x.x

train train train.... so gonna kill him.

2010-05-27T11:45:00.002+08:00

was at orchard road just now. soooo many red boards. haha. GSS is here. a long queue outside coach store. so many people. don't they need to work? ?

anyway, happy that tmr is a holiday.

=)

2010-05-26T20:52:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just feel like putting away everything and just move on. i wish i am at my 60s or 70s going to die. no need to think so much, no need to prepare for the future when i am already in the future.

i realised everytime i asked a question, no one replied. hah. so my cravings is so off. sometimes i realised that what i wanna eat is not the kind of food that others will like. others will eat, but not for cravings.

gss is here. shit.

nt working on monday. hooray. so looking forward to it.

the weather is freaky humid. how i wish the temperature is the same as shanghai.. but not as dusty as the city.

2010-05-25T19:43:00.003+08:00

sigh. she pissed me off... totally.

going back home after work is such a chore now... she kept waiting for me after work. stressed.

hate it.

i think everyone keep stuffing food to me. everyone at work kept asking whether i need food or not. -.-" had been eating since after lunch. OMG.

don't feel like doing anything tonight, just wanna sleep it through... =/

Cravings for buffalo wings... Anyone?

2010-05-23T20:03:00.000+08:00

So bored...

I am feeling moody again.. :(

2010-05-23T10:29:00.003+08:00

went to watch shrek 4 - forever after, alone. i don't know why, the first thing i wanna do when i touched down, i soo wanna watch a movie. haha.

hah. in 3D.. not nice. felt being cheated. the show not nice too.

supposed to start the show at 7.20 but in the end started at 8pm due to technical fault. but okay lah, since they said i am able to exchange 1 for 1 ticket within 3 months at any branch. =)

2010-05-22T23:55:00.002+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME! =)

had some sleep. hours but still so tired. can't be jet lag what... same timing. i love my luggage for some reasons. =)

all foreign websites are being blocked in China. -.-

so one week of no entertainment - no tv, no fb, no youtube.

so just work, sleep, work, sleep. stressed.

work there for an hour is as if i work in singapore for 1 day. lots of work.

good experience, but seriously i hate the food.

i think i am used to not having lunch already.

already cravings for food.but why is it i dont crave it when i am in singapore ah?

typical singaporean. haha.

2010-05-15T10:48:00.001+08:00

sigh.

see ya people. i have a list of 'what to eat' when i am back in sg.

wahahahaha.

dah.

2010-05-14T08:46:00.003+08:00

fell asleep while blogging yesterday. too tired.

sorry ah, taken secretly, took this at Livewire Good Sports. The screen is so big, like watching movie. live telecast of sports, with the seats so comfortable, there is a table for each chair. air con blasting, kaos! i love that place. hah.temporaily entrance fees being waived.

going to china tomorrow... i don't feel like going... it is really not a great time to travel. so many things to do but i still need to be away. =( haven't even pack my things yet. sigh.

i would like to visit universal studio in sentosa... anyone?

did i mention i watch the backup plan? the guy is charming. but so not realistic. just love jennifer lopez.

argh. so many things to bring. shoot. =((

2010-05-14T00:48:00.003+08:00

Thank you.......

off to bed. dah.

2010-05-12T00:29:00.002+08:00

was @ molly malone's for dinner with the girls. delicious splendid meal. thanks for the treat.

celebrated with my colleagues too.. cut cake and thanks boss for the lunch treat.

yes people, i am officially 24yrs old. I am happy, but not very happy, sad, but not very sad. hah.

at the age of 24yrs old, i completed NOTHING.

everything half-way.

love life, zero. one more year to mid year crisis.

btw, sixth sense is not accurate.

i love what i am doing, but can i go further? how far can i go?

and thanks to the people who wish me. i ♥ you all. =)

2010-05-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to ME!! :))

2010-05-10T02:27:00.002+08:00

will update more when i am not so tired.

went to sentosa just now.. been like soooo long since i last went there. when i am still in primary school. hah. so exciting. went to take alot of pics. see see look look.

pics will be up soon.. hopefully. lol.

weekend is over, so fast! how to hibernate! not enough!

thank you... even if i said a hundred times, it's still not enough. i don't have such good fortune to have you all to be around me all the time. i am being spoilt. if one day you all decided to walk out from my life and disappear.. i am worried that i have to pick up myself, again. =(

2010-05-08T17:06:00.001+08:00

new blog skin. rushing out, come back then adjust the alignment.

rainning... but then its still so humid.

dah.

2010-05-08T02:46:00.003+08:00

whew... weekends... i love weekends... but i think i am making myself too busy. bad.

why am i busy everyday? i also don't know, i only know when i am at work time passes sooo fast. like 'blink' is lunch time, and 'blink' again, is 5.30pm. and the best is, i can't recall what i did, but i recall what i have yet to do.

OMG.

too many invoices, quotations, purchase order to issue, checking the indo side accounts is a headache. and when boss is around, my name keeps buzzing around my ears. but people told me it is good that you are wanted. hah.

and y am i not sleeping? because i am suffering from caffine effect. HAHA.

didn't have a very good dinner just now. food doesn't taste good, not to mention fabulous. over priced. but i enjoyed the company though. =)

wanna watch back up plan. but realised, no gfs watching. sad.

i shouldn't look back a year ago. when everything started.

met up with jenny, and chatted with her.. suddenly.. i started pouring everything out. sobbing. what's wrong with me? i think i am too hard on myself. sometimes, it's good that i sat down and think about what happened, what is going on, what is going to happen in the future. think though, what i really want. am i expecting something in return?

and i caused such a dramatic scene just now. okay, hoping that everyone doesn't remember my face.

i can sense something is going to happen on that day. women's sixth sense. trust me.

and you, treating me like your gf is giving me headache. checking on my schedule... i think u are hoping that i will say, 'hey, y not i meet u after my piano?' no no no. and when i asked you why you called, you said, 'just checking on how are u?'

....

and that is when i see you everyday in office you know?

everyone seems to be so easy to read, so predictable, including me, myself.

2010-05-05T17:25:00.002+08:00

was in orchard just now... crowds everywhere. everyone seems to be so busy. how i wish i can be like them.. busy buying things. HA HA HA.

2010-05-05T09:09:00.002+08:00

been on a roller coaster ride since yesterday... why is this happening to me again...

i believe everything happens for a reason..

and to make things worse.. the weather is super not friendly at all. so dry and humid until i need to sleep on the floor. glad that my bedroom floor is made of marble tiles.

now that my bday is drawing near, i hate it. i wish that it never come. i shall plan an exciting day for that day - sleep.

i must get better and not get worse. physically and mentally.

2010-05-04T08:28:00.001+08:00

Not a good day to start off with.

Suddenly... I miss you... :(

2010-05-03T20:10:00.003+08:00

My arm cannot wait till wed.. Sound like some baby coming out. -.-

When the doctor said it's not painful, it's painful. Don't listen to them!

It is not painful before the anaesthetic went off. so irritating.

Btw, how am I going to write ah!!

And doc said I will grow back again! Crap.

Anyway, cannot type too long. Scare I 'open' the wound.

Tmr have to go back for dressing. Sigh.

2010-05-03T14:34:00.000+08:00

I am afraid... =(

2010-05-02T22:25:00.010+08:00

watched iron man 2. nice. but y no romance genre movies nowadays? or i missed all?

anyway, my arm was painful such that i need to go get antibiotics from the doc. that lump in my arm. doc said it is infected. can't operate now cos it will cause more baterias. wth? thought i can drag it till i get back from china. but guess not, need to go for a minor surgery on wed. wasting money again. y cant i just be healthy all the way? zz.

can u see my veins on my hand?? freaking disgusting. haha.

my fav dish of the day! guess what?

it's unagi in the middle of the omelette! i like! hee.

yummy!

potato tempura.

this is a picture on the floor. can u see the 3D effect?? i took awhile to realise this. HAHA.

she is causing me mental stress. =(

insomnia.

2010-05-02T07:36:00.000+08:00

May day over! Sigh...

Off to swim..... Blog later.

Dah.

2010-04-30T23:53:00.008+08:00

heh. had dinner with yali just now. like super long didnt update her. HAHA. finally try the jap restaurant - Tonichi (or something like that at TM) glad that there were not many people in the restaurant though it's fri! hee.

was taking some random pics... will try to practice more on it.. but it seems that i fail to take nice pics again. LOL.

i think this is consider the best shot.. because it looks super yummy, and it is really not bad lah.

yali's dinner. pic too dark. haha.

supposed to take the gross big ikan billis.. but forgot to take it out and laid on the tray to take pic. LOL.

forgot this girl is talking to who. LOL. should be 'egg' hahahaha.

so angry with the macro function... it is always in auto mode. so, i brought it to the shop and ask the sales person how to set it to manual as sometimes, the auto function is not very sensitive. and she told me, these type of low end cameras does not have manual function. angry can. then what is high end? if $400++ consider high end, i also saw a few without the manual macro function what! boo! shall check with other stores until they give me a satisfied answer!

went to batam for meeting the whole morning just now. so tired. but ok lah, at least i dont need to spend alot of time in the office.

busy weekend ahead! argh.

i love this pic! hee.

2010-04-28T11:44:00.003+08:00

i ♥ my new camera! but where is the macro function! lol.

2010-04-26T23:26:00.001+08:00

U think I will bother? Honestly, no. How to 'feel' for another girl I really don't know..

Teach me lah!

2010-04-25T13:37:00.005+08:00

envious. Sometimes I really hate myself. Always so negative. I am enjoying the attention, but are u sure?

I still have more negative comments abt u than the positive ones. Sorry! I felt that u are more interested in my financial status than me! Or am I too sensitive? Always Asking Abt my cc, salary, etc; which I don't even tell my close friends!

And you, stressing me, driving me crazy. What am I suppose to do to tell u that I seriously nt interested in girls?? Stop sending me those smses.. i know u care.. but i am really not used to it. asking to take my meals, take care of myself, blah blah blah. Its gross, and I won't say yes, u miss me, Thts yr business, nt mine, I am really going crazy, u have me go to the pt that I am getting irritated by the things u say and do. When I don't reply, u call, what if I don't pick up? U come to my house and look for me?? Its really very stressful.. I can't sleep.. Stop sending me those smses, then u start sending apologies smses.. Stuff like Tht.. Is either u are mad or u wan me to go mad like u.. who i am going out with, or who i am seeing, does not include u. don't stop me! argh.

today, big boss just talked to me about my china trip. he said i am not suppose to be there for holiday, but work. OF COURSE! why would i choose to go there for holiday?? if only i have a choice...

bought a luggage. not excited about it as it is not something that i will wanna buy or i ever thought of buying.

getting frustrasted and irritated real easily these days. what's wrong with me?

no longer get to see it so often. sometimes wonder is it still there or not. when i wake up it is not there, when i going to bed, it is still not there. but anyway, i didn't fork out monies though.

i can feel the stress, mixed feelings, work and non-work related.

learnt not to gossip. keep personal stuff to personal. it is highly dangerous and fatal. people tend to pass it on.

trying to find someone to talk to after work has been difficult nowadays. difficult to find someone for me to whine, nag, chit-chat.

sigh. must be the monday blues.

2010-04-22T14:05:00.002+08:00

so happy! 3 more months and i can re-contract my line! wooooot!

kekekeke... BB here i come! ♥

2010-04-18T03:18:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I miss tanjong pagar... Regnum.. I miss the food there... I miss not getting drenched on rainy days.....

Y am I still stuck at this phase of life..

:(

2010-04-17T01:19:00.001+08:00

when i started flipping the first page of my photo album, i told myself:"it's enough."

no more.

2010-04-16T10:16:00.004+08:00

date set.

23rd to 28th May 2010 - Shanghai.

Taking SIA. sigh. so sudden. just suddenly... hmm. because it is in China.

People ask me what i want for my bday. but when u asked, u asking on behalf as my friend, or...? hmm. anyway when people gets more mature (note that i didn't use the word 'old' =P), the things we want, will eventually increase its value. Maybe when i was 1 year old, what I wish for is just some candies. But now, what we have in mind are gadgets and stuff like that.

Okay, wish list:-

1. ~~Camera~~
2. Watch
3. Gucci Wallet
4. Cake
5. ~~Trolley Luggage~~

Hah. Actually it doesn’t matter, these are too expensive for gifts. So I am just listing to remind myself! Haha. Or perhaps, just give me money lah, don’t waste money on other things. If you insist on giving. HAHAHAH. =P

Can’t wait till End of the year! Though my hp is good. But I wanna get another one. HAHAHA.

Anyway, work haven't been smooth for this week. bad, bad week.

sometimes, it's not about the work, it's about the people getting the work done.

on a happy note, today is friday! hah.

2010-04-10T00:13:00.001+08:00

Finally... Sparks! :)

so many things I wanna buy. Sigh...

2010-04-05T13:42:00.005+08:00

heh. i had a great weekend! with family and friends.

FRI - went to Qian Hu and see fishes! the fishes not cute one. so big and fat. Kenny Yap, the boss is soooo 自恋. almost everywhere, every corner, all his pics! =/ had korean bbq in the evening and sing sing sing! =) finally my craving for the bbq is O-V-E-R.

SAT - went to work and visited my boss's new born baby girl. soooo cute! =) after that, met the girls to sing sing sing, went to clarke quay and chill! =D

sometimes really hate myself for getting all emo up over small little things. or tiny weeny things.

SUN - super nice weather to sleeep. hah. watched hong kong drama all day, sent bro back to camp and slept at 10.30pm. i think i sleep too much. sigh.

i really hate that feeling. getting all tensed and emo-ing. guess period is on its way here. boo.

i heart this pic. =)

bro is nice today that he sent me to work. wahaha. no monday blues! yay!

guess someone is so into me, but i aint into him. sorry.

2010-03-30T00:09:00.000+08:00

下一站，幸福。

什么时候？

2010-03-28T21:56:00.000+08:00

i saw my reflection and i tell myself that it will never be the same again.

emo.

2010-03-25T15:56:00.002+08:00

i ♥ ......

TOYOTA RUSH!!!

it's here already! and it's yellow! but people, can't drive you guys yet till i master my parking! argh.

my agaration is ZERO.

but friday night the car is mine. where can i go? any places that have easy parking lots??? heh.

2010-03-24T09:00:00.004+08:00

@work. not happy today. but then... it' just another day, with school.

i must learn to work more than socialise more.

i did have some guilty thoughts in mind. should i move on? but i feel sad. now i am so unsure of what i want. if i say yes, they will be heart broken. if i say no, i will keep waiting, and what will happen in future? god knows.

and everytime when i am soooo sure of something, you appeared again. makes me think twice. you are not forgotten, but it's just that... i am not sure that whether that we will work out again. and you never say that we can try again.

what should i do? i did hesitate. i did compare. i cannot apply the same method as before. i am so used to you. if i say yes, it will be a new and different beginning.. and i am scared to be hurt again. no more 'feeling fades'. i hate this phrase.

but one thing i know... i have to give myself a chance, give other people a chance. i do not know whether i am having a crush or i just need a substitute. argh.

can anyone tells me what to do?

maybe i won't say yes.

2010-03-21T22:03:00.002+08:00

i had a great weekend, though i was sick. and i am still sick. running a fever. argh.

♥ my girls.

it is still too early to tell...

2010-03-18T12:47:00.002+08:00

why are all guys so flirtish?

on one side, you will think that it is a bad point. and he is not flirting with you.

on the other side, he makes you feel good. because he is flirting with you.

HAHA.

so is it a good or bad point?

2010-03-13T02:44:00.002+08:00

waiting for my hair to dry.. maybe i should wait for mac bkf? one more hour to go! so hungry now..

anyway, met the gers jus now. had so much fun and laughter. laugh so hard. HAHA. yali's bf is so entertaining. haha. and they are just toooo swwwweeeet. hah. which is gd! =)

i had a great day at work. i love working.

going for dental appointment later. kinda worried. scaling again. argh.

2010-03-10T14:29:00.002+08:00

i supposed that i am important if you can call me in the plane before it takes off...

2010-03-08T22:46:00.002+08:00

seriously, i feel like throwing shit at your face when u make that comment. wtf. it takes two hand to clap. now u are talking, about the girl, not the guy? HELLLOOOO. aren't you just the same as him? u throw me away because of some annoymous girl. or not girl? whatever. i am sooo pissed off to see that comment.

i am not saying that the girl has no fault. BUT then, he/you should know what is right or not.

the worst thing that can happen to a couple is that, there is a thrid party in the picture.

really is... wtf.

anyway, i am enjoying my work now. still happy with what i have to do so far. my boss once told me,staff welfare is consider small things that a boss should take care of, if the boss can't take care of the staff, then how can he/she do bigger things?'

i like this.

better than the other comment. argh.

2010-03-04T14:01:00.000+08:00

is this pic scary or what?

2010-03-02T15:08:00.002+08:00

march is here again.....

almost a year...

how i come so far, i don't know.

now i know, time heals everything.

walking through the pain, hurt and sadness.

no longer remembering any happiness between us.

the end.

period.

2010-03-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

i ♥ MONDAY! =)

2010-02-28T22:31:00.003+08:00

watched...

omg. it is a touching and practical love story. and i believe that the part when they got separated and back together again due to army really exist in real life.

and he is cute. Channing Tatum. super cute.

just realised he is in G.I. Joe too.

awww...

and i am dreaming.

2010-02-24T23:19:00.002+08:00

boss: i already asked the boys not to tell you more tales about china. scare you run away.

me: ...

YAY to bangkok! tickets booked and finally going.

NO to china! but good in the sense i can go and experience it.

what am i going to do without you...

2010-02-21T23:22:00.002+08:00

totally pissed me off. why is everything standing in my way?? i think this is a bad omen.

if you really miss me, call me, don't just wait for things to happen. things won't happen just by using eyes power. though i won't pick up, but at least i know. not by u saying 'i missing u'. it won't work on me. u can simply just mass send it to every girls/guys in your contact list. i can't be bothered.

been pissed off for the entire day. that's it. off to bed.

2010-02-21T14:12:00.002+08:00

pls STOP bothering me!!! i will NEVER pick up the calls that you made.

what goes around, comes around. don't blame me that your gf left you. if you want an affair with me while you are attached, i believe you will do that if you are with me. i WILL NEVER let you intrude my life ANYMORE!

2010-02-20T12:14:00.002+08:00

working... (surfing net actually)

15mins.. can't wait to sprint off. boss is out dating already. lol.

troublesome to arrange annual dinner. argh. this is what happen when there are soooo many people to confirm.

going out shopping. yay!

2010-02-20T00:53:00.002+08:00

today was a tiring day.. (OMG, why did i start off with such a classic sentence??)

just came back from the bbq and it turns out to be quite ok. but too bad for the oolong cha. argh. i hate it. super long didn't take that and i thought i will have overcome it but nah, it is still not happening. shall not try it again. but anyway, went for the auditors' meeting for the whole afternoon. has been preparing for that for days with all the transfer pricing and stuff like that. hate budgeting. boo.

had a talk with my boss. he is super lame and funny. super excited when comes to 'i want to sing karaoke!' and don't be suprised with his song list which goes down to taylor swift, lady gaga, beyonce, fish leong and blah blah blah. i thought he only listens to oldies though.

he was telling me in the car saying that i will be going to china, to do some auditing of the accounts of the china factory. in march. when i dont know, but he said in march. go for a week and when i am having school holiday, i have to go for two weeks. x.x

i am not excited. heard so much tales abt there, toilets, food and traffic. but guess it won't affect me if i told myself that i only drink from mineral water, maybe i can go on a diet since i won't like the food? traffic is being taken care by our company driver, toilets i heard that the factory toilets are quite clean. the most go to the company mansion toilets.

preparing for the trip, got the chinese terminology of the reports terms so that i know how to say bills, balance sheel and stuff like that. how is the weather like i don't know. sigh. y does it have to be my first flight... y not japan.. =P

but anyway, taking SQ so i assume that it will be safe.

haha. this week is a short week. and glad that weekend has arrived. have fun people! =)

2010-02-18T23:26:00.004+08:00

there is something about you. ♥

2010-02-17T23:09:00.004+08:00

suppose to be yesterday post, but i think i forgot to post it.

i have half day at work today. but i wasn't happy about as i dragged myself to school in the evening. but i have lunch with all my colleagues. :)

whats wrong with me? i keep doing wrong thing. sigh. now people think that i am a weird person. ARGH. what have i done... stupid me.

i need to be myself again.

sleepy. dah.

2010-02-16T23:00:00.001+08:00

note to myself : stop looking at things that reminds me of him.

it really hurts.

2010-02-15T17:17:00.002+08:00

i am ~~enjoying~~ cny holidays.

so boring! the weather is too hot and making me dizzy. the financial reports are also making me dizzy.

i wanna get a camera. soon. before i head out to china and bkk.

2010-02-13T15:08:00.003+08:00

watched 'valentine's day' yesterday. i watched it alone. hah. had half day yesterday so i decided to head down to downtown to catch a show. lots of students. i wish i am stil in sec sch. when after sch, have fun and gather with friends. it's been a long time that i went around walking in the malls at 3-4pm. i love the sun. =)

the show is sweet. super sweet. lots of casts and i love the show.

i became tight up when you asked: so i will be out the whole day on chu yi?

i didn't reply.

not that i don't wanna tell u, i am just worried u will appear right in front of me, and i won't know what to do.

the most hardworking day of the year is today. where i help my mum to do the cooking and clearing of the house. argh. i am a lazy bum. haha.

what should i do with cny? i wish i am working.. but i heard there is half day on wed. argh. so sad. then it will be neither here nor there as i got class on wed night. boo.

he smsed me before he went to msia..

it is the first year that we wont be contacting each other during cny. if that is what u want: no strings attached.

do what you want to make yourself happy. that's what i am thinking and also, what you ask me to do.

'turns someone you like into someone you love.'

how to?

i remembered in the show, there is a scene and i think it's along this line:

guy: do you ever thought of marrying me?

girl: i considered. but when you marry a girl, you want her to WANT to marry you, and not just considering it.

i have sleepless nights, bad dreams. and sometimes, same dream appears. but i already don't tell. no point telling. people get sick of it and it is so me. i have to learn to overcome it. it is so not worth it. i am feeling the hurt, but you are not. i am feeling the sadness, but you are not. what for?

period.

2010-02-12T13:21:00.001+08:00

Y-E-S!

Half day granted!!! =D

2010-02-12T11:32:00.002+08:00

*boredom strikes me*

!!!!

i am really bored lah... working but then... not working. sigh. basically doing typing, in blogger, facebook, skype and msn.

opps.

can i have some entertainment? just let me go home.....

2010-02-11T19:26:00.005+08:00

Waiting in toa payoh for the girls. Sooo long! But then it's ok with me a long as there is wifi.

Today... Big boss talked to me... My nightmare is here... I am going china! ( with a '!' doesn't mean that I am excited!) sigh...

After new year but maybe I can drag until June.. Then I treat it as holiday. Hah. I going to brush up my mandarin so that I am able to communicate with them! Sigh...

And my irritatig boss wish that I can go now.... Argh.

Should I be happy or sad? Though I know it's not station there.. A few months once.. I can see this day coming.. But it's abit too fast.

Itouch is gd. It helps me to type in proper English. Haha.

--------

Back home. thanks to zhen's bro drove us back. tired. age is catching up. sigh.

the crabs are tasty. but then... really no image when eat crabs in public. haha.

sigh... i thought of china... i headache. should? should not? but the prob now is not should or should not anyway. just creating more troubles thinking about it. =(

random-ness...

him: so what did mr lim told u?

me: that thing lor...

him: what thing?

me: china thing lor...

him: so what did you tell him?

me: okay lor...

him: wait till you go china.. i make sure i go also so that i can bully u.. hahaah...

me: hahaha.. u say one ah.. i going to learn from my friends who are auditors in china abt the chinese terms of those reports then i make sure i use it on you and make u blur.

him: please, you report to mr lim, not me. my job is to disturb u.

me: ...

boss these days not in the right mind. must be the tricks of cny. hoping after cny will still be the same.

off to bed! dah.

2010-02-11T00:17:00.002+08:00

i ♥ the new visa debit card! it's pretty! and it's an ezlink! and other than this, i get an ATM card! polka dots! ;)

citibank still not coming... booo. actually i don't like the bank. expanded too fast and heard lots of bad remarks. anywayyyy... it's always good to have different cards in different banks so that i can go holiday in peace. wahaha.

went class today and suprised to see jz. hah. we were discussing about the papers. oh well, night mare.

i love being young. however, sometimes, it puts me at a disadvantage at work. when clients see me, they will go 'oh, you are so young'. and i can tell you that in their mind they are thinking, 'how to work with a young lady like this? can she handle it?' it's true that it's hard for a older person to respect someone who is much younger than him. basically they have no confidence in me. hate it.

should tell them, don't judge the book by its cover. haha.

anyway, i am not VERY young. 1 more year to mid age crisis. hah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHEN! see you later. =)

2010-02-10T11:59:00.002+08:00

received a new year card from my ex-boss.. *touched*

list of movies that i wanna watch.. (for my own note.)

1. valentine's day
2. i hate valentine's day
3. Percy Jackson & The Lightning Thief

i hope after cny, i would have conquer them. hah.

suddenly, i don't feel like going to class... =(